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It’s funny, our conditions
For communicating have never felt
Better, like it’s never been
Easier to talk to someone you are
Separated from by decent fractions
Of a world, or even
Language, but on the
Other hand these conditions
They have also never been more
Mediated, like when I go
To say hello
To you
On the app we use
For talking all this happens:
I get an ad
I see a message from another friend
I realize my saved
Searches don’t have my wife at the top
Which feels wrong, so I go to her
Profile again
Hi Kristi
I get another ad
& I finally open up
The messages part
I see you left me a voice note
I like voice notes, they do not demand
An immediate response
Which usually I cannot give
Anyway, but after
Enough of these you sort of start to see
Immediacy as its own gift
Like in a flesh-and-blood
Or even telephone conversation
The back-and-forth doesn’t sit
With you as long, it’s not enough extended
Pressure to stretch the fabric, quick
Replies like fingers passing through a candle
Flame, not burning a single digit
Why is it so hard?
Even with our friends, our loved
Ones, why can it be so hard?
& I can hear the voices
Already, saying things like
If it’s difficult, that must mean
There is something wrong.
What you’re calling love
Is actually an ashpot lid
On top of manipulation
/abuse
/classic psychoanalytic
Familial frigidity—
But that’s not true.
Haven’t you ever loved someone
It was impossible to talk to?
If not about anything
Some things?
Haven’t you ever addressed
Someone completely
Dear to you,
The rich veins of personal
& other histories running through you
Both like
Adjacent mountains,
Knowing there
Was a perfect gridlock
Like an orrery in which rotate
You, your dear one, and the thing
You most hoped to express?
Always at a fixed distance?
Completely scared
& never alone?
There bully me, in these hills,
Various deer
Who threaten to jump
In front of the car at night—
They’re less than shadows until they’re not
So every time it’s a chance game,
Trusting caution
& abandon to dance
Then show me the card at the end
Of the evening
If they remember. They might have
Better things to do by then.
The ladybug on my stick of deodorant
Is alive as long as I’m talking
& not putting any on.
White Freightliner
Remember, you can perceive
something without your phone knowing you
perceived it. In January
a high wind will take the tear away
Bible verses from the bulletin board
and deposit them in the animal shelter
parking lot. I don’t know what to do
about the phrase “plain American
cats and dogs could read” I read
in the Randall Jarrell book
an ideal or an opponent
crabgrass choking everything out
and taking over. I watched
a Molly Tuttle video and now the ads
think I play guitar, or want to
learn, which now I kind of do.
Untitled II
I couldn’t read the truth
in lending statement
the internet was so bad
In the painting, angled
sections of color meet at
a point, & along edges
Someone uploaded a video
of their slow boyfriend
& the comments were a mix
In the notes a poet
explains their use of “t”
over “ed” (e.g. wreckt)
I dreamt of a poem called “SAINT THOMAS”
& that was it, just the title then blank space
Poetry
Wet food for adult cats, the stars you can’t see, a cup of water after a glass of milk, finding the other glove, decommissioned death ray, calendar with no Tuesdays, the saint’s finger bone accidentally transferred to the poorest church, finding something you had lost in the hiding place you were going to use for something else, surprise kheer with plenty of cardamom, a live version of that one song, space dust past our light cone, light touch of the regretful soldier, the many refusals that make us, hovering around the decision like a fly looking to leave and finding only glass, only glass
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